Boku no Kokoro no Yabai Yatsu: Exploring Emotional Depths – Episode 11

The Complexities of BokuYaba: An Unforgettable Journey

Unveiling the Intricacies of Sakurai-sensei’s Introspective Writing

After each captivating episode of BokuYaba, my mind becomes a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions. As we approach the season finale, I can’t help but feel a sense of both excitement and disappointment, contemplating the possibility of another captivating season. However, let us discuss the latest episode, which proved to be a significant turning point in numerous ways. As we explore the subtlety and perspicacity of Norio’s writing, we come to appreciate its full brilliance upon subsequent viewings or readings.

Sakurai-sensei’s writing possesses the precision and finesse of a skilled surgeon wielding a scalpel. Its incisiveness never misses the mark, leaving us with a profound understanding of the story. This is why revisiting the material multiple times is crucial, as every detail holds immense significance. What struck me the most in episode 11 is the considerable departure it takes from the original manga, and surprisingly, these changes enhance the story. Akagi Hiroaki’s influence has gradually seeped into the past few episodes, culminating in this transformative installment.

Delving into the specifics of these changes would be a disservice, as I encourage readers to experience the manga themselves—an absolute must for any fan. However, I will mention that Akagi’s adjustments have bestowed upon this narrative a seamless flow and heightened emotional weight. One notable modification involves the timing of the first video call between Kyou and Anna. In the manga, readers anticipate this moment to occur either this week or the next, during the Christmas date. Yet, Akagi ingeniously relocated it to the Ichikawa family trip, enhancing its impact. This journey holds significant implications for both versions, considering the practical challenges of maintaining a secret relationship at a tender age. Last year, sharing a room with his sister Kana at Grandma’s was inconsequential, but now it poses a problem for Kyou. Oblivious to the protocol, he overlooks the need for earbuds or a headset, unintentionally revealing the impact this relationship has on his state of mind. The Akita scenery previously held no value for him, yet driven by Yamada’s desire to witness snow, Kyou is determined to provide her with the best experience. Consequently, an incident ensues, resulting in Kyou fracturing his wrist (although this moment underwent some modifications from the original manga when it comes to Onee’s involvement).

The Ichikawa family plays a significant role in the series, and their presence is particularly notable in this episode. We are introduced to Ichikawa-papa, portrayed by Nakano Yuto (known for his role as Ginko), who embodies a quiet demeanor with an uncanny ability to listen, a trait often found in reserved individuals. Even Kyou’s mother senses a change in her son following the injury, much to Kyou’s discomfort with her perceptiveness, a common concern for boys his age. Grandma Ohtori Yoshino, on the other hand, believes her brother appears unchanged, despite Onee’s insistence to the contrary.

As always, Kana, Kyou’s sister, holds a significant place in his life. Their interactions reflect the authenticity of a sibling dynamic (I can personally relate as I have two older sisters with a similar age gap). Kana stumbling upon Kyou video chatting with Anna, despite his obsession with keeping it a secret (which is not really a secret), becomes a pivotal moment. Should we be fortunate enough to have a second season, this thread will undoubtedly be further explored. Kana’s tone, characterized by cautious protectiveness, aims to temper Kyou’s expectations. She refrains from interrogating him extensively, but it is apparent she wants to shield him from fostering unrealistic hopes. Kyou, who possesses remarkable perceptiveness, surmises that Onee faces similar fears and insecurities. Her admission of having no male friends serves as concrete evidence supporting his observation.

The late-night call represents a transformative moment. Norio’s incorporation of the line “I’ve used the word ‘friend’ so rarely that it doesn’t even autofill” epitomizes the surgical precision of his writing. Kyou’s response, “I said we were friends. For now,” tacitly reveals his true feelings (a realization Anna promptly grasps). On the ride home, Kana engages Kyou in a conversation about Anna while their mother sleeps, but it is worth observing their father closely. Nakano-san’s portrayal of Papa brims with attentive contemplation.

Upon the Ichikawa family’s return to Meguro, Ichi’s immediate instinct is to visit Anna, ostensibly to return her scarf and manga. In truth, he longs to see her desperately. Anna, under the assumption that Ichi wouldn’t come over due to his injury, inadvertently meets him along the way as she walks her Akita, Wantarou, and they head to the park together. In this moment, Ichi reverts to damage control mode, convinced that the Akita keychain he bought as a souvenir is too cringy. However, when Anna expresses her desire for him to keep the scarf (an intention we can safely assume she always harbored), Ichi once again finds courage in her straightforwardness.

The scene at the family restaurant undergoes significant alterations crafted by Akagi-sensei, though the overarching narrative remains intact. Nanjou’s unwavering persistence persists, undeterred by Mamiya’s presence as he attempts to obtain Yamada’s LINE information. Moeko, too, joins the gathering, initially feigning ignorance regarding Ichi’s identity. However, “Ichihara” stands firm against Pickup-pai’s unrelenting pursuit, adamantly refusing without providing an explanation other than “I don’t want to.” This display leads Moeko to openly declare him as a friend and acknowledge the undeniable connection between him and Anna. Such a seal of approval serves as a milestone moment for Ichi.

Undeniably, nothing about this journey is easy. Perhaps there are those for whom navigating such territory comes naturally, but I am not one of them. It is precisely this reason that I find a deep resonance with Kyou. His character stands as one of the most exquisitely crafted in manga, a literary masterpiece by Norio, highlighting the stumbling yet profound first steps of romantic love. Even if romance were the sole focus, BokuYaba would remain an exceptional series. However, it is Norio’s ability to convey Kyoutarou’s personal growth that propels it into the realm of an epic masterpiece.


In conclusion, BokuYaba captivates with its complex narrative, brilliantly interwoven characters, and introspective exploration of young love. Norio’s writing, guided by Akagi Hiroaki’s transformative touch in the anime adaptation, marks a significant turning point for this extraordinary series. As we eagerly await the season finale, we cannot help but hope for another chapter in this captivating saga.

Frequently Asked Questions

1. Is BokuYaba based on a manga?

Yes, BokuYaba is indeed based on a manga. The original work was created by Norio, whose exceptional storytelling abilities shine through in both the manga and the anime adaptation.

2. Are the changes in the anime adaptation better or worse than the original manga?

While changes in adaptations can evoke mixed reactions, in the case of BokuYaba, the alterations made by Akagi Hiroaki have enhanced the story. These changes provide a better flow and amplify the emotional weight of the narrative, making the anime adaptation a must-watch for fans of the manga.

3. Will there be a second season of BokuYaba?

As the first season nears its end, fans eagerly anticipate the possibility of a second season. However, concrete information regarding future seasons has yet to be announced. Let us remain hopeful and continue supporting this remarkable series.

4. How does the Ichikawa family contribute to the story?

The Ichikawa family plays a vital role in BokuYaba. Each member contributes distinct insights and dynamics, reflecting the complexities of familial relationships. From the perceptive father to the protective sister Kana, and the ever-attentive grandmother, they add depth and authenticity to the story.

5. What makes BokuYaba a masterpiece?

BokuYaba’s brilliance lies in its multifaceted exploration of young love, coupled with Norio’s impeccable character development. The series encapsulates the intricacies and vulnerabilities of its characters, drawing readers and viewers alike into an epic, heartfelt journey like no other. It is this remarkable combination that solidifies BokuYaba as a true masterpiece.